lost

At times I do feel so lost. Up here in this strange town with no real friends to call my own. I have my bf but we just aren't the same. On our anniversary he said he liked talking to me, said we should talk more.  But when I try to talk to him sometimes he just doesn't listen. We are preoccupied with our phones, technology, texting, instagram. It, at times, seems to much for me. I feel as though I am supposed to lead a more simple life. I feel like something is missing. I feel like I should be somewhere else.
I am sick of this house, which we signed a 12 month lease. It has been a month and a half. I knew the responsibility would be more but I did not imagine I would be taking care of a huge 3/2 all by myself. One roommate is a full time bartender and stays with her bf a lot and the other is just a random, irresponsible, does-what-she-wants kind of girl who doesn't help me for shit. So anyways after this month and a half I am already contemplating getting out of this lease. That all depends on the decision I am waiting for. I don't want to say what it is, but I am crossing my fingers. If the decision is a yes, a whole new door opens for me. I can change my life.
Because you see, I feel as though I am not truly happy with my life. I need change, I need to do what I want. What do I REALLY want.....